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December 28

Busy Days

Finally I have time to talk to myself once again. Ever since Melissa's birthday, I have been quite busy. Let start with Christmas.

Well, the day have to start negetively, I would up with hangover and I have to ate panadol to sustain my well-being. Haha. Too much alcohol on Christmas's Eve. Then after all the nuaning in the bed and when I eventually decided to wake up. Sister and Brother came with the kids and they spend the day watching the nonya show on my laptop. Well, guess I am stuck with you, PS3 =X. End up having dinner at Raffles Place at the foodcourt after so many changes of destination while I am driving. Zzz. Indecisive Libra just like me. Haha. Christmas was just this way,the "just another day" day.

Boxing Day is a day I have to wake up early to go to Pasir Ris as promise for my PTN tutor that I would help out at Wild Wild Wet. Susan was late as usual and her stupid information of not wearing swim suit have really affected us badly. So we are there with 13 kids and for us, we are suppose to look after the 4 mischeivous boys. In my futile attempt to remember their name, I will still prefer calling them "Alpha", "Bravo", "Charlie", "Delta". Well, Ang manage to remember their name. With all the goofing around and the kids growing rather attached to me. Haha. I manage to escape babysitting duty for a while and slack at the shiok river. That was indeed a shiok time where I see Ang chasing the boys round after round whereelse I am just floating around on the tube =X. Well, it all ended at 2p.m. and most importantly, lunch is free.

After that, it Part 2. Part 2 involves me taking my pay, going to vivo to buy a lame present which involve no real effort =) and getting conned by John. I shall explain the conning. With me and Susan seperating from the rest to buy presents. I decided to do something lame. That is to slack at golden village comfy sofa and give them a riddle of my location. Well, after waiting a while, John called me saying " Eh, this is an emergency, got something bad happen, where are you ?" Without giving much thinking which is because I am overly concerned that indeed something bad have really happen to you (e.g. menstrual cramp). I gave away my location. Then just like how Cao Cao realised that he been trick. "Damn you, CCB. How can I be so dumb?" Well, that so bo liao though. After that, we met up and was going to your house for dinner. Your Father was funny. I did not know my tranformation is so big that your dad could not recognise me. For a moment, what he say kind of make me happy. Though it is really hilarious that your dad ask "Why is Kenneth not here ?" right infront of me, it set me thinking. Am I kinda expected to be there? Well let that belief stayed that way. At least it will keep me happy. Your mother cooking is great and the rest shall remain a 不能说的秘密. After all the fun, you drove us to harbour front. I realised you drive better than me =) except for the no braking over hump and the failing to check blind spot. Well, that day was a great day cos everything is free as I live a day of luxury. The only things I spent was the present and the treating the ppl a trip home from harbourfront. Sorry Ang, taxi cannot fit 5 ppl. Haha. Be a man, do the right thing. =D

Ok. Let see. Saturday right, saturday was my cousin wedding. After all the rushing here are there from school, home and the epic incident of John's Gf calling me to find him. I ended up at Fairmont Hotel. After attending quite alot of wedding, I realised that the happiness emitted can be felt by everyone in the room. I dun really know how to explain the feeling, it just a nice feeling in the heart. Seeing the wedding photo is like witnessing that miracle that can happen in this world. It like looking at a real life love stories that most people do not really believe in. I really hope that I can be with you on that stand one day. It will be definitely the happiest day of my life.

Although there is still much to talk about on Sunday, I am currentl half paralyzed, tired and sulking because school starting tml. It time o finish my maggie mee.

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December 25

Merry Christmas

I dun think I am in a right mindset to blog... but however since it seem that I can type proper sentences. It should be alright.

Today started off with me waking up just 1 hour b4 Mei Ying come my house. So i started off with preparing myself to become visible to the world. After doing project and stuff, I went out with Zhen Ming family and Bob to have dinner at Lion City Hotel. Then we go to St James. However due to my my young look, we got rejected because of underage.

Then we go to another pub at Amara Hotel. I currently cant remember what I do there. I just know I trying to sover myself and I think I did somethig stupid

Merry Chirstmas!!

Christmas Wish:

For you to stay as happy as ever. Ok, for me to stay drunk... Hahaha...

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December 21

Reality Check

I realised blogging is for the lonely people. Logically, if you have someone you can openly talk to, I do not think there is a neccessities to blog. Hence, it all come down to "the more you blog the lonely you are" sort of theory.

Ok. Back to topic. Today soccer was a reality check. We went to Fengshan primary school to use their field. The grass was ok but the soil was lousy. It is not flat at all. Perhap that why it called "Fengshan" the fan blowing it causing soil erosion. At there, we met another group of people playing called "Beri United". Indeed, they are very united. We went for a friendly with each other andof course end up losing. Here I come up with a couple of excuses/reason:

1st: It is their home ground.

2nd: If only Zhen Ming, Kah Wei was here.

3rd: I am having stomachache and I din sleep well yesterday

4th: With a group of 40+ old man playing for your side, you cannot expect a Cristiano Ronaldo. If there is, it either me or Dexter.

Ya. Convinced ? Haha. Honestly, I din not have a good game but I can say I did well other then the reluctant to drift out wide to helpout. My passing is superb but my work rate is hmmm... tiring. While Dexter was having a game of his lifetime as a goalkeeper, I was trying to keep my attacking instinct and play defensively, which is a hard thing to do for me =p. While at least I know my weakness is composure and stamina. Alway shining in the beginning and disappearing at the end. Haha. Well. Good job Dexter.

Yup, due to the stomachache, I spent $7 to reach home. When you know Kenneth took a taxi, it must be terrible pain. Darn, I have to direct that blur taxi driver that tried to cheat me by going the long way. Hello ah, I got DRIVING LICENSE ar ! Well now have to rest and hope that my stomach dont give me problem. Seriously, I need some care and affection. If it was in the past, that important person will sure show me some but unforunately, I dont think there will be any =\. All I know is that you also like me, I understand that maybe there is something you are still reluctant to let go or just not ready. I will wait, even if it take 5 or 10 years.

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December 20

BQQ + Soccer = ?

Hmm... First thing first. Welcome back Kenneth. I am back. Ever since I got the concept of Blogging is gay, I stop blogging. Although I am back here blogging does not mean I am gay, it just a change of perception.

Well after 2 days on continous BBQing, I wonder how will that affect my soccer tml at Feng Shan Primary school at 8.30 a.m. (P.S. Ya I am writing every detailed of my life just for you (= ). The first BBQ (Yesterday) is kinda idiotic. The epic incident of me pouring cold water onto the burning charcoal causing steam to rise up and burning my hand. For the rest of the BBQ, I have to use my left hand and thank the wonderful cheena people. They came to "help" to cook. Ya cook the wings like they cooking some char kway tiao. Well, at least I am able to go off at 7.30, which is 1 hour earlier. While I walk home, I said something epic/silly again. Looking at my right hand, I said "All these is worthy. For the present !". Haha.

Today is another BBQ, this one is so much more successful and easy. That why there is not much to comment about. Except when I go off, I overheard that girls' conversation. "你为什么一直看着他(Me)". "我觉得他(Me)很帅" Damn! I dont even care.

Yup, after a hard day of work, with most of the people at Jeanne "Suprise" birthday party, I am here resting and sulking. BTBM, one of the worst module. It like the feeling of Me in the Arcade Toy Picking Machine. When it suppose to be an Angel picking me out, all of the sudden I am plunge into Hell. Tomorrow suppose to be the the meeting for the MMIT and BTBM project. Unforunately, Star Player, Mei Ying got rashes and could not come. What the point man !? Without her the average IQ of the group drop instantly to 90 And Big Breast confirm, chopped plus guaranteed sure wont bring laptop and give me stupid excuses. Life suck man. I believe in the combination of hard work and flair but I dont think i have to suffer these twice in a semester. Guess I have to take a step back and relax. Trying to sleep early for tml soccer.

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August 18

Emotional

I almost cry infront of you today. That instance is a rush of memories, both good and bad rushing through my mind. At least I know it definitely true love. I know i will never be with you ever but i am just contented to take care and look after you from afar.

It a funny feeling that have no logic in it. Every moment I may suffer heartache yet I am willing to suffer it. I just hope that worst come to worst that one day i will not suffer due to jealousy.

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July 26

Interesting

I realized one of the most interesting thing in your life start when you are born. Relationships. Whoever it may be, be it your parent, your friends, your partner, it will forever be interesting. It because that no one person is identical and there are just uncountable incidents that can happen in a relationship. It is like no one can master the art of realtionship even if you are so called expert. That is the true theory of long life learning.

Well. I will try to explain it. Relationship is a balance of 3 main things: Passion, Intimacy and commitment. It all start from passion follow by intimacy and then commitment. Also, Relationship end because of loss of passion and without passion, intimacy start to go down followed by commitment. Learn to manage them well to maintain a successful relationship, a so called "A" relationship. Cherish them and never take them for granted, whoever it maybe. A word of advise.

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July 19

Year 2008 My Life

Reading my past entry, I realized that it has been 2 damn years. Life have not change much except that it gone suckier, busier, and nevertheless more fun. On paper, I am actually leading a more happy life. In reality, this is really that true. Life has become meaningless lately. I dun even know what I am doing. I realized that I am not really doing what I wanted to do, which is following my dream.Sometimes I wondered why am I studying all these nonsense. It made me sleep.

There was once when my friend was looking at my past photo, she told me this "你很久没有这样笑了。" Looking at that photo, I saw myself smiling like a nutcase beside a girl that I once liked. It sadden me that happy things doesnt really last. I began to ask myself, why I have not had a girlfriend. Am I really that bad in character or ugly ? Ugly isnt a possibility as people around me actually said I am 帅, although I think I am just average. The theory of one man's meat is another man's poison really suffice in this case. Haha. Then, what about my character. My good point, I think would be loyal, devoted, responsible, caring. My bad point would be arrogant, stubborn bah. Other than that, I dun think I am that bad. Perhap it is because my expectation of love is exetremely high. It is because of such a lack of love that causes me to be overdependent on my other half. Every single minutes that I felt loneliness, I alway expect that all will disappear once I found my other half. However, it not really that true.

For now, it perhap would be better to leave it to nature. Afterall, I am overloaded with project and expectation from my friends. It like "You are Kenneth leh, sure A one.". Unneccessary presure. Sigh. I rather be a slacker yet I have a principle of not letting my friends down. Well, life sucks. Hope one day, I would able to find someone that have a huge enough chemistry that together we can make this world explode. At that moment, I think my smile would last.

My 1st dream is to be a soccer player. To train and play like all the other fortunate kids in the world that are given the opportunity to do so. That dream is lost. My 2nd dream is to have a very exciing relationship to the extent that I can say "When you die, I will die too" to her. I think that once this dream become out of reach, I would lose all the spirit and energy I have left to continue living on this planet.

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June 24

A Reply

(In the tune of Would You Be There by Redwan Ali)

If you were blue, I will be there for you and whisper in your ear it's ok.

I would stand by you, let you hold me tight and say I love you one more time.

If you feel good, I would slow dance with you and touch your lip with tender loving care.

I would die for you, I would run with you and never look back....

I would be there to love to be with you.